I can't believe it has been 6 yrs

At this time 6 yrs ago, my water had already broken and I was taking a shower and eating some cereal before heading off to the hospital. With nervous anticipation we headed to the hospital mid morning. By that eve, we had a beautiful baby girl that looked just like her daddy. Who would have known how much my life was going to change and all for the good. Looking back now it seems like it was just yesterday, but in truth it has been 6 yrs. I have a beautiful, smart, and caring kindergardner. She has taught me so much in life and she is such a blessing. I love you baby...happy birthday to my girl!!

Of Course

So we had a great time in Reno this weekend and as we were leaving, Kaitlyn came down sick. So it was good that we were heading home. Then on Monday, Julie started out with my horrible cough....I know she is miserable because I know that I was. All I was thinking was that she is the superstar in class this week and the whole week is about her and this comes up. So she went to school yesterday and then last night she came in crying that her head hurt so bad, she was burning up and feeling like crap. Uh oh....so this morning she had a 101.6 fever and looked horrible. I didnt want her to miss school due to her special week but I knew she needed to stay in bed. Bummer...now I only hope that she is better before her big birthday party this Sat....that would be horrible. Lets keep our fingers crossed.

Almost a New Year already

I don't know where this year has gone....it went by so fast...I can't believe that Christmas is over too...wow. It has been a busy year for us and the girls are growing up so fast I can't believe it. Julie is almost 6, most days going on 16 and Kaitlyn is 3 1/2. It seems like just yesterday when everyone was here for her birth. So now it is time for my new years resolutions and I am going to try very very hard to stick to these, maybe even making a reward system for me if I stick to them.

My 2010 Resolutions

1. My husband is a great man, wonderful father, and patient with me. I am truly blessed to have him in my life. MY RESOLUTION IS TO BE A BETTER WIFE IN ALL ASPECTS. MORE UNDERSTANDING, CARING, LOVING, HELPING, ETC.

2. I have 2 great girls, but sometimes I lose my temper and patience...I know we all probably do at times being a mom. MY RESOLUTION IS TO BE A BETTER MOTHER, MORE PATIENT AND INTERACTIVE WITH MY CHILDREN EVEN WHEN I AM TIRED OR SICK.

3. Work more on my financial goals. I RESOLVE TO SPEND AND USE MONEY MORE WISELY AS IT AFFECTS EVERYONE IN THE FAMILY.

4. I RESOLVE TO BE MORE SYMPATHETIC AND CARING TO OTHERS WHEN I AM IN A HURRY, who knows how bad their day is going.

5. LOVE MYSELF AND FORGIVE ALL OF MY MANY FLAWS.

6. LOVE MY BODY AND STRIVE TO MAKE IT HEALTHIER.

7. HAVE ANOTHER BABY ....(I thought maybe I could sneak this one in, although I know my husband is saying there is no way...)

So here is to a great 2010...hope everyone has a wonderful year.

Why does it seem so hard

I admit, when I was a kid and my mom always wanted me to clean up, I never realized why it bothered her so much. She could just close the door and hide my mess, for years we argued about this and I always thought it was such a petty thing....well lets just say that now I have kids and I have payback x2. Why is it so hard to get a 5 yr old to clean up after herself. She can come up with every excuse in the book and I look at her and wonder where in the world did she get that one from. Then I clean up and turn around and I think that a tornado has just touched down in the exact spot that I just cleaned and destroyed everything I did...not only that but somehow it seemed to also add to the never ending laundry and dish pile on top of everything else. I think us moms need some special energy juice just to keep up with the kids, house, meals, school, etc. Before I had kids, I never thought that it could be this hard. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids to pieces and I enjoy them, but I wish they came with a clean up button already installed....

One thing I left out

As I was reading back my earlier post about how things fall into place, there was one critical thing I left out. Yesterday, I couldn't find my cell phone, despite the fact that I knew that I had it the night before. This morning before the whole car issue, Adam went out to my car to get Julie's lunchbox so that I could pack it for her and out of the blue decided to look for my phone. Not being able to find it in my car, he called it and heard it ring...in the grass in the middle of the lawn. After thinking how that could have happened, I came to the conclusion that it must have fallen out of my pocket two days earlier when I got home on Tues night from the store, because we were out in the dark, trying to stake up our tree from the wind to save it, which means that it was out there all day and night until this morning. Thankfully my phone is waterproof so no problem there...but can you imagine if we didn't look for it this morning or Adam didn't find it and I would have been stuck on the side of the road in the cold with no cell phone...oh my gosh......like I said things happen in weird ways.

It may suck, but it could have been worse

I think it is strange how everything seems to fall into place sometimes...even at the bad times. Let's take this morning for example. Kaitlyn had a late school start because they were having a Halloween party so she didn't have to be at school until 10. A friend invited us over to her house for a play date before the party from 9-10. Well I was not really motivated to get moving this morning and all us moms know how that is, but I decided to suck it up and get a move on. So we left our house about 8:30 to head to the gas station and then on to our friends house. About 5 minutes into our trip all of a sudden my car makes a weird motion(don't know how to explain the feel) and will no longer really drive forward...great. Well by the grace of god, I managed to get it a few feet out of the road and happen to be by a place in the road that had a large shoulder(it is a fast two lane road). How I managed that, I have no clue because right after we got it there, nothing....it was still running, but wouldn't move. Kaitlyn kept telling me to go and asking why the car was stopped and that she wanted to get to her friends house....so here I am stuck on the side of the road..needing gas, and did I mention it was 40 degrees outside. So I call my husband, then I call the friend whose house I was going to and thankfully she was leaving to take her son to school so then she just drove to where I was to pick up Kaitlyn so she wouldn't miss her party and also because we were freezing since I couldn't let the car run with the heater when we were almost out of gas. In hindsight, I guess I could have just let it run and run out of gas, since it had to be towed anyhow. Then I called AAA and they said it would be 20-30 minutes. I then called me husband back and told him that he needed to leave work and come and get me so that we can follow the car to the shop and then be able to pick up Julie...wow. What a morning. I froze even though I was covered with a blanket and had my jacket on. Well my husband and the tow truck arrived about a minute apart and they hooked it off and on we went. Let's just say that we just paid this car off....yeah!! Well so far we had to fix a panel on the transmission 2 months ago which wasn't cheap, last month the battery died, and now this. My husband and I were both pretty sure it was the transmission so we were trying to decide if it was worth fixing since we were planning on buying a new car next year or if we should just bite the bullet now. So it turns out that it is the transmission which is going to cost between 2200 - 2800. We then decided that we really couldn't afford to take on a new car payment right now so we decided to have it fixed, which means it has to be towed again to a different shop that does transmissions.....I GUESS I KNOW WHAT MY CHRISTMAS PRESENT IS.

On the other end of this, if my friend had not invited us over this morning and had I not decided to get out and go, we would have been stuck on the side of the road and then been late for or missed the party altogether which would have been a major problem since this is all she talked about for the last week. It also just happened to work with her schedule that she was dropping her son off anyhow so she would be out and could pick up Kaitlyn. For some weird reason, I made it to the side of the road and out of danger and my husband didn't have a meeting that he was in, so he was able to easily leave work to come and help me out. So I guess if you are a glass half full kind of person, it turned out to all work out in the end....

Family in crisis and other ramblings....

Do you ever have moments in your life when you wonder why things happen to people. Well as most people know my cousin who is 32 was diagnosed with Stage 3 colon cancer about 4 months ago. She just had a new baby and also has a 3 yr old and I cannot imagine what she has been going through. She has been having treatments with radiation and chemo...well last week she had a new MRI to check how things were going...the results were horrible. It has now spread from her colon and they have now found it in her hip bone....as she put it, her life sucks right now. They are now going to put her on high doses or radiation for 12 weeks, 24 hrs a day. I cannot imagine having a new baby and a toddler and having to face something like this. I am not overly religious but I am going to be praying and praying for her...I think one of the fears of a parent is not being able to watch your children grow up.

On a more positive note, we all had a blast this weekend camping....we also went to an amusement park and the boardwalk. The kids had tons of rides all weekend and none of us were ready to go home(ok maybe my husband was). It is so cute to watch them grow and change and experience all the new things that come along with life. Julie is doing great in school and loves it, we have her 1st parent/teacher conference Nov 6th so it should be interesting to see what her teacher has to say. Tomorrow I am going on a field trip with 3 of the kindergarten classes up to apple hill so that should be interesting and hopefully fun, although she has another bladder infection so she has been grumpy for the last few days...hopefully the meds will kick in and make things better.