Tuesday, March 27, 2012

33 on Thursday

Wow, on Thursday I will turn 33 years old. How time flies. As I look back upon my life I feel humble to have all that I do. It has been a wild ride along the way, but even those things that were hard and almost killed me have made me a better person today. As I approach this birthday, I have a different respect for things and maybe even a new perspective. Maybe because I have been ill, but with Lupus you never know how long you may have left in life so I am trying to make the best of every day that I do have left knowing that I am lucky to still be around. Life isnt easy but worth the ride. Losing my father when I was just a teenager was one of the hardest things I have ever had to go through to this day. I miss him and think of him every single day.
I was lucky to have found a husband who is just like my daddy was. He is caring, loving, supportive, and understanding(even when I am being selfish and difficult). He is my rock, my support, and my best friend. He has made my life better then I ever imagined and blessed me with 2 wonderful kids, a nice house, nice things, putting up with my many pets...(lol). I tend to get caught up in the drama sometimes of things I dont have that others do(lets face it, I was an only child) and he is always that positive voice to ground me again and I thank him for that. I know that I am truly blessed and "things" do not buy happiness. I have friends who have everything, but not a great marriage or they have problem kids etc....I finally feel in my life like I have it all.
My kids are wonderful with big huge hearts and although they may bicker and argue and stress me out at times, I know it is all a part of them growing up and I embrace every little moment..before I know it they will be all grown up and not wanting to hang out with mom...
Speaking of Mom's I have the best. She is the most unselfish and caring, giving person that anyone could ever meet. She has always been my best friend and my family and I are truley blessed and spolied by all that she does for us. She is strong, stronger then I ever could be and has been through a lot in life but never lets it get her down. She embraces life and it shows.
To my few really close friends I thank you for putting up with all of my weaknessess and sticking by me. You know who you are and you will always be near and dear to my heart.
I am also lucky to have a wonderful set of in-laws. So many people can't stand to be around their in-laws but I can truley say I love mine and I am so lucky to be welcomed into their family.
I don't know what tomorrow will bring, but I do know that I am finally at peace with my life and that I have all I need to be happy. Life is a journey and I am going to sit back and enjoy the ride......lets hope for another 33 great years......!!