I need am going to need a vacation from my vacation...

So we are in the middle of our 8 day vacation to New York to visit the in-laws, attend my husbands cousins wedding, and go to a baby naming ceremony for my niece. Boy am I tired, and the worst part of that is my in-laws have been doing most of the running around with the kids...which has been a godsend for me. It is not that I am not having fun, it is just that our days have been very full of things to do. My husband told me today that he has been to more Jewish celebrations this week since before we got married. (which has been 6 years). I love seeing my nieces since we mostly see them through pictures only since we live on different coasts. Also I have to say that I have seen the wonderful girl that my older daughter has become. I can't believe that she sat through a whole ceremony at the temple and a baby naming with no complaints or problems. I even asked her if she wanted to go out with the younger kids, she said no. She sat there for 2 hours as good as can be. By the end of the ceremony, she was the only child still there, so the rabbi came by and gave her a special candy. Then today we attended a wedding which was very long and hot and my younger one was all over the place, in fact I had to miss the ceremony because she wouldn't be quiet. But my 4 year old sat there as good as can be, like a little grown up. She danced and played and ate and behaved herself. My husband and I left early because my 2 year old needed a nap, but she wanted to stay behind. Everyone said how good she was, dancing and being polite and enjoying the wedding with all of her heart. It makes you proud as a mom to hear that and realize that although there has been some very hard times, it is all worth it and I did things right with my little princess. If she can go out with others around and have compliments about how good she is, then I am proud. She is growing up to fast....as I look back and everything has went by so fast. She goes to school, she is an excellent swimmer and an even better horseback rider. She no longer needs her mom as much as she did, she is growing up and branching out in this world....she is only 4, but man am I proud of her. Tired, but proud!!

Garlic Festival or Bust....plus Kailtyn's 2nd birthday

Wow has it been a busy two weeks. We finally made it to the Gilroy Garlic Festival which I have always wanted to go to...well let me tell you it was such a disappointment and I didnt even get to taste the one thing that I have always wanted to try when I got there. Lets just say it should have been called the Festival of Lines...because that is all we did...we left after only 45 minutes. The bad part is we waited in line on the freeway to get in for 2 1/2 hours in which time we only had to go 2 miles.....waste, and the line was so long for the ice cream it would have been another 2 hrs just for a taste. I think if you ask Julie the only good thing about it was that now instead of throw a ping pong ball and when a goldfish, you win a hermit crab which she did and brought home and added it to her zoo.....

My little girl also turned 2, I can't believe how fast the girls are growing up. It seems like I blink and they have gotten much bigger. Julie is such a talker and very smart. She has very intelligent conversations for her age and Kaitlyn is a handful, very independent and stubborn...but sweet too. She had a great time at her party which we had at a small lake by our house with our family and a few close friends. She went for her 2 yr check up and she was 28lbs and 35 1/2 inches.....she is very tall for her age.

Enough is enough!

This is getting crazy....today I went to the gas station at Safeway on the way to pick Julie up from school...now they have this new crazy rule at the pumps that you can only pump a max of $75 or $100 depending on what credit card you are using and if you want to pump more then you have to go inside....why they did this, I have no idea. Maybe to piss us moms off who don't want to take the effort to go inside because we have little ones in the car. So that made me a little mad...but the worst part is that as I was pumping my gas, the pump suddenly shuts off because I have reached their pump max and the bad thing is that my tank wasn't even full. Now it wasn't like I was using the super premium gas, just plain old regular....if things continue this way, nobody is going to be able to go anywhere....we need to find a solution and fast. At this rate, I don't know how much longer all my hard work of my business can survive. Pretty soon due to gas prices, my prices will have to be so high, no one will be able to afford it anymore. On the flip side when it is 106 outside and the air quality is the worst I have ever seen it(due to the hundreds of fires burning in California...in purple to be honest something like an AQI of 276(I didn't even know they had a purple) we have been staying inside, which makes for a crazy house with 2 stir crazy kids.

If nothing else, at least she is honest

So I got a big slap in the face today from my 4 yr old. We were sitting in the living room watching TV and a Nutrisystem commercial comes on tv. As my 4 yr old intensely watches she turns to me and says "Mom, why don't you get that..it can make you lose weight"..."you want to lose weight, right?" So I ask her why did she say that and she says to me because you are fat mommy and you need to lose weight so why don't you go and buy that.....

Who the heck is MURPHY???

So I don't know who this Murphy character is or how he even got his name, but I do know that I HATE him....let me explain...yesterday I went to my 3 month rheumotology appt that I have every 3 months. We were talking about how great I was doing and how if I would have asked him 6 months ago where I would be, he would have never thought I would be doing this good. We even talked about in 3 months to start weaning me off all of my meds....yeah!!! Fast forward to this morning. I woke up and I noticed some aching in my wrists but I thought well maybe I slept wrong. Until the morning progressed along with the pain...(you have got to be kidding me). Did I jinx this because yesterday I was talking about how things have been great for 3 months with no pain issues...and this is Murphy's way of getting back to me. My Dr said that my body had probably self corrected itself and put me into remission....he also said that my case will never be black and white...since there are so many over laps of the diseases...he thinks he is leaning more to arthritis...but it still could be lupus....anyhow I don't mean to complain, but man this sucks...

On the upside I had a beautiful niece come into this world the other day and I cant wait to meet her in August...congrats east coast family!!

It's been a while

Well, I noticed that I haven't written in a long time, so I guess it is time...this will probably be all about random useless things today but just something to get it off my mind and let everyone know what is going on in my life. Well 1st and foremost we decided to turn our unused hot tub into a koi pond(something that my husband and I have talked about building for a long time)...it is very relaxing to stand out there and watch the fish....but I also want them to become tame and become the kind that will come up and eat out of your hand etc...so I guess in that instance they are teaching me to be patient. I feed them and then stand there for an hour waiting for them to come up and eat and realize that I bring food and I am not a predator....so I wait and I wait....I will let you know how that goes.

We also just returned from a family vacation to Galveston, Texas. We went to the water park, beach, Moody Gardens, boardwalk and just relaxed. I think the most daring part of the trip is m husband took my almost 2 yr old on all of the big water slides.....I was scared to death but she seemed to love it. My 4 year old will go on them all day if we let her, but my 2 year old is defiantly not a risk taker like my 4 yr old. All in all we had a good time and we are now home to return to our normal routine. My 4 yr old also had her end of the year school party yesterday. Now she is off to pre-k. I can't believe how fast she is growing up. It seems like the days go slow but the months go so fast. Before I know it they will both be all grown up.

Now I just have to vent about something...I wont mention any names, but why does it always seem like the best laid plans always get messed up and when you are looking forward to something, someone finds a way to change it and mess everything up. I know I shouldn't complain but I have a certain person who is supposed to be related to me, but I have tried to make every effort to show my love and become close with no return. I guess more then anything it is frustrating and upsetting. I try not to let it bother me, but then out of the blue she comes along and upsets all of the plans everyone else has...I know that in truth it is not really her fault, but I think it bothers me the most because so many other people dote over her and change the things that are going to happen because she shows up and then their is me, who I believe she could care less that I am around and want to care...anyhow probably no one will understand this last section but I needed to get it off my chest anyhow.

Good news....and well who knows

So I went for a biopsy on Wed for a lump that I have had for about 6 months that has been painful and they were not sure what it was...So yesterday when I went to the Dr's for my EKG they gave me the results of the biopsy...NORMAL..nothing to worry about...great news right....well then I had my EKG done.....they told me that while it is within the normal limits, it had a lot of artifacts in it so they are going to send me to a cardiology group to have a treadmill test. I asked them if they ever gave me good news anymore?? I guess on the other hand I have been feeling well, except for being a little tired but with 2 little ones what can you expect. I am thinking about getting a second opinion on my lupus because I don't have that many of the symptoms that they say are involved with it...maybe I just don't want to believe it but I have been doing well, and what does it hurt to exhaust all of your options..right???