It's been a while

Well, I noticed that I haven't written in a long time, so I guess it is time...this will probably be all about random useless things today but just something to get it off my mind and let everyone know what is going on in my life. Well 1st and foremost we decided to turn our unused hot tub into a koi pond(something that my husband and I have talked about building for a long time)...it is very relaxing to stand out there and watch the fish....but I also want them to become tame and become the kind that will come up and eat out of your hand etc...so I guess in that instance they are teaching me to be patient. I feed them and then stand there for an hour waiting for them to come up and eat and realize that I bring food and I am not a predator....so I wait and I wait....I will let you know how that goes.

We also just returned from a family vacation to Galveston, Texas. We went to the water park, beach, Moody Gardens, boardwalk and just relaxed. I think the most daring part of the trip is m husband took my almost 2 yr old on all of the big water slides.....I was scared to death but she seemed to love it. My 4 year old will go on them all day if we let her, but my 2 year old is defiantly not a risk taker like my 4 yr old. All in all we had a good time and we are now home to return to our normal routine. My 4 yr old also had her end of the year school party yesterday. Now she is off to pre-k. I can't believe how fast she is growing up. It seems like the days go slow but the months go so fast. Before I know it they will both be all grown up.

Now I just have to vent about something...I wont mention any names, but why does it always seem like the best laid plans always get messed up and when you are looking forward to something, someone finds a way to change it and mess everything up. I know I shouldn't complain but I have a certain person who is supposed to be related to me, but I have tried to make every effort to show my love and become close with no return. I guess more then anything it is frustrating and upsetting. I try not to let it bother me, but then out of the blue she comes along and upsets all of the plans everyone else has...I know that in truth it is not really her fault, but I think it bothers me the most because so many other people dote over her and change the things that are going to happen because she shows up and then their is me, who I believe she could care less that I am around and want to care...anyhow probably no one will understand this last section but I needed to get it off my chest anyhow.